Every drug addict is weighed down by guilt. We take drugs to blank out and numb the pain caused by other people's actions, not realising that the effects of drugs cause us to act in the same way. It's a vicious circle. In typical fashion, my brain decided that my viscous circle had to be brighter and fancier than everyone else's; which is why, and I shit you not, I am feeling guilty about a childhood memory, that I vividly recall due to the comical aspect rather than the gu

No matter how much I say "DON'T COME ROUND, FUCK OFF, DON'T WANT TO KNOW YOU"- the message isn't getting through. So what happens? He just lets himself in and strolls right through my front door! So I take extra precautions to keep the front door locked at all times. His next tactic? He brings round a Staffordshire Bull Terrier, who barks relentlessly scratching at the door while the Troublemaker knocks and knocks until I open the door and speak to him...at which point he jus

So... there's this kid who lives 2 doors away from us, who we have bumped into repeatedly since moving in. His older brother became pally with my husband, after finding out they both had an obsession with motorbikes! We've not said more than a casual 'hello' up until this point. But made the decision 3 days ago to invite the older brother in for a coffee; so him and my husband could sit and talk bikes. The kid ended up tagging along with his older brother, which wasn't the pl

There are a lot of times in a drug addicts life, where things have got that bad, the only line you can resort to is; "Oh well, what goes down must come up! When you hit rock bottom, there's only one place you can go- that's up!" This is when you've failed rehab six times over, destroyed your family, hurt your friends... and actually come to the realisation of your actions. So I feel pretty confident in stating that the statement above, is not true. Sometimes, when you hit roc

BURNER PHONES A burner phone is the most unsecure phone you can have in your possession. An Android phone gives you the opportunity to activate 'developer options'. You can use these options to map fake locations, use a 'cloud number' which the police will never be able to retrieve call or message records from. Install a security app which has 'control zones'- meaning you can set your phone to factory reset if it comes within a certain distance of a police station for example